Out to get a life.

It is no secret that I need to get out more often. I’m 100% certain that if I practised what I preached I wouldn’t be single today and be sharing loveable moments on a merry-go-round. I am just looking in the wrong places; *public toilets, trashbins, stuck in traffic and grocery store in the meat section. Sometimes I lose hope in those places but that feeling rarely lasts longs, you kidding me, I ain’t no clown. So I’ve reverted my valuable energy to even more usless and pointless outlets. What I mean? ONLINE! I have never wasted more time than I have online. It’s not the most effective way to meet people and yes I will boost my ego, I am better than this. I wonder if I’ve reached rock bottom. Yes I have! Like always, I bounce back.

I want a family, you know the usual, a few animals, some gold fish, and maybe a human being.

So, over the weekend I have stepped out of my box and I was on a mission, I tried something and new and exciting, I went to the mall (I need to get out more often). I had the thrill of my life. I was excited that I made an effort with some eye contacts and flirting. It was delicious eye candy. I wanted more. They were just walking by, naturally looking my way.

The point of this is that if you’re looking for “the one and only” you’re not going to find him/her online,  or at the mall, or in the toilets, or in the meat section. It will happen when it’s meant to happen. If you’re looking for a wet dog or a cheap shag, that you’ll find it onlne. And if you’re like me (and I hope you’re not) something called love will happen one day. Prince charming or Princess wonderful cannot be found online, there are so many lies online, a 40yr old that posts his high school picture as recent. People who have had the same picture of themselves for the past 10 years, just call me the PicturePolice.

But there’s hope and there’s Lance. I read a short interview with Lance Bass in Hello! Canada magazine, and in it he says he loves Toronto and wanted to move here if he had a reason to move. Lance, I AM the reason!! Something about him that I like. Not because of his “fame”, but his character and personality (besides I was never a fan anyway). I read people very easily. And back then I was ‘Backstreet Boys’ fan anyway. So, Lance Bass if you’re reading this (wishful thinking, I know), I am in Toronto. Marriage and all. Toronto and I. Hey, we can only fantasize. Besides, I’ve been indulging lately since the cold weather has approached. Just the other day I ate a Chocolate Truffle Cake. Sooo, I’m a certified porker. Big Deal! Gotta enjoy life once in awhile.

Hey, you gotta believe in yourself. Good to have dreams. But seriously, I can relate to Lance in a very small way, when it comes to coming out of the closet in a difficult and daunting situation. I came out of the closet in one of the scariest places, and I’m still alive to tell the story. So we both got balls. What does one have to do with another you might ask? Well, in both situations it’s about taking chances, the courage, and probable backlash of stepping forward and doing something risky. People don’t like change. And most likely the consquences, if any. Entertainment biz has nothing to do with where I was when came out obviously cause I’m not part of it (and a lot of people reading this don’t know what the hell I am talking about), but trust me, it’s related.

Anyway, Just shy of 3 years since I began and a lot of thinking and regret and for my mental well-being, I’ve decided to end my vegetarian diet. I’ve reached a pont where I’m sick of the same food all the time, the bland food over and over again. I can only eat so much Soya made products. I’ve had enough. So I made some chicken lastnight with my usual and I gotta tell you my tastebuds were having a party then had an orgasm. More options and minor changes however.

Great, I just got a PETA email.

I will NOT eat cows/lamb/pigs etc. Just birds and fish.

I’m out to get a life.

* No way in hell