Wicked and Wild Wind

So, you know how society thinks right? When I’m with my sister and my 11 month old beautiful niece, what else to think than my sister is my partner and my niece is my kid. WRONG! This is one of those things society automatically assumes. Or two males having dinner, they must be gay. Or another example, when I was in my early 20′s I used to weight lift as my brother training me, people thought he was my boyfriend. Well, we don’t look anything alike and our personalities are like night and day, but that’s besides the point.

But there is so much more to life than pretty faces. Relationships that are based on the physical aspect never last long nor do relationships that “start off as a one-nighter”. There are those who belive in that theory and I just wish the best for them, or do I? People like that are out of touch with reality, and I’ve never been in a long term relationship and I even know that.

If you’re wondering why someone my age as never been in a long term relationship, it’s not necessarily because I’m mentally unstable which I admit I am somewhat, ok at times a lot depends on the day, but if I believe that most people are mentally stable, I am a fool. I’m not saying this to compare myself, but I just hate to hear it from people who think they know it all. When they’re wrong and won’t admit it. I’ve never been in a relationship because love has never found me yet. Perhaps, I am not ready yet, or maybe I am and I’m into women and I’m a straight in the closet type. All those things and I just have more work to do on myself, or perhaps I need to find that person who can work with me and not against me as I fight my demons. And so far, no one has been up to that challenge or want someone complex as I am.

I close this blog entry with the following lyrics by ColdPlay..

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy’s eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
“Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!”

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn’t believe what I’d become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh